Why older

i get asked a lot why an older 65+ controlling dominate? well here's why...

i was born into a family that had 2 boys and my parents did not want a girl at all. i was treated badly by all my family no matter what i did. i wanted my dad's love but he never gave me any. soon i figured out when i was bad that was the only time he paid attention to me. he would yell at me call me stupid, smack my face, and take me over his knee and spank me. i was never good enough. when my parents divorced i was left with my mom who hardly came home anymore and leave me with my brothers. they treated me worst than my dad. many times they stripped me down and locked me in the backyard with the a****ls. they loved to smack me around and call me many names. so through all my years of growing up i realized this is the only way i get loved, being mocked and smacked around.

so i guess this is my daddy issues where i need a strict older man to run my life.