What is it really that turns me on?

It’s not looking at a cock cuming that turns me on.
It’s the knowing what it is like
when my cock is cuming,
or to have a cock cum on me,
that turns me on.
It’s not what I am looking at
that turns me on.
Looking at that reminds me
of what it is like, what it feels like,
and that feeling is what turns me on.