Am I just looking in all the wrong places?

!warning, rant following, this rant isn't pointed at you, that fact that you are reading this rant means that you actually care about me as a person and not just as a piece of meat!

This week was worse then most, the same scenario, again and again.

Guy: Hi sexy
Me: Hiya
Guy: you horny?/Want to watch me wank off?/Can we cam(ie can you act sexy for me so i can cum)?
me: [Ignores them]

I can't count how often that happens. Despite my new warnings on my profile (that very few people end up reading anyway), despite common sense and decency, despite social boundaries and personal space, people seem to think the combination of anonymity and this being a porn site that they can throw all that out the window and be complete arses. These people wouldn't dare say the things they say too me to a living person in the flesh, do I not deserve the same respect? am I a lesser person not worthy of such common courtesy? It makes me feel so degraded and sub-human, and not in the erotic kinky way either. Am I'm not the girl who sits down and takes that, boy have i giving a few people a real ripping in too, but lastly its become so tiring and those who i do explain to politely seem to get annoyed, angry and down right offensives that i dare have an opinion, and ask them not to treat me like a cheap street hooker.

These people seem to think I'm in-dept to them, that I am here to serve their needs, that they are a unique snowflake, and thus should feel privileged that i have the opportunity to serve them. The guile they have, to expect me to put on a sexy show for them, to turn them on and get them off without even considering about reciprocating in any way, for my wants and need, for my excitement and enjoyment.

I'm not going to lie and pretend I'm better than them, that they can't hurt me, "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me", Ha! It gets to me, it demeans me, makes me feel like a lesser human, I face too much of that in my day to day life to recieve it again on my time off.

Which bring me to my main point. Am I asking for it? By advertising on a porn site, dressing provocatively and generally trying to give everyone a chance? While I believe how I dress, present and act are simply an expression of myself and should not be interpreted as a message to people to do whatever they want to me, it would be foolish not to notice destructive behaviors and refuse to act on them. Would things be different, Would i feel better about myself if I closed my profile and moved purely to a social/meet-up site or even dropped online all together and stayed to meeting people in the real world.

Sadly the choice is not that easy, as I have meet some truly wonderful people here, and you know who you are (and thank you!), I would have never meet you, or will never meet people like you if I just left this site. There are diamonds in the rough and you make this whole experience so much better. While we still get to have those saucy, sexy chats, theirs non of that feeling of being used or feeling as a lesser behind it, as it's clear that your respect me as a person, that their is more to our relationship then just sexy talks/cams, that you actually enjoy the person beyond the skin and bones, the fact that I know we would still talk if I refused to cam again, send anymore pictures or refrain from kinky chats. And that means a lot to me, so thank you, thank you with all my heart.

I'm not sure what my point here is, that I'm just rambling on, venting at people who make this place terrible and thanking the people who make it truly a great place. I just felt the need to get that off my shoulders.