I seen gambit lastnight

So i was in a bit of a mood last night and when gambit text me I didn't reply... for like 2 hours I wasn't going to at all like I had all but decided to give him up :-\

But I was in a mood and didn't want to be alone so I gave in and started text him and I told him how I feel and that I wanted him or i wanted him to leave me alone

well he said he would leave me alone if that was what I wanted and then text me several times after and eventually text guessing that I had fallen asleep and that one got a reply I told him I was still up..... he wanted to come c me and I let him

And what do u think happened next... I bet u think we fucked I doubt that u really have any faith in me at all.... I know I didn't

And he wanted to.... I could have but I didn't

I let him hold and it felt nice to be in his arms he is over 6ft tall and well built and I've always thought that I fit perfectly in his arms and I'm no little girl and he kissed me and he kissed on my neck and ran his hand over me my legs mostly he knows I like that to have my legs rubbed.... but it just felt wrong I kept thinking that I didn't even want him and idk y

He text me later after he was gone telling me how glad he was that he had come and how much he had missed me and I felt bad I thought it would help seeing him help me shake my mood but it didn't