Second best

Second best..... OK so who thinks I should ever be second best? Not me I'm just not a second place kind of girl... but we will get back to that later

So will... OK I may have had sex with will

I know I shouldn't have I was trying not to have sex with any one but we started talking again he text me said he had been really busy with his new classes and to be fair I did know he had just started new classes just before we quit talking... but I think its more than that and I've talk to him and he knows everything about be and link but its OK

Oh and will he isn't a cukold he just needed a vocabularylesson he thought it was just watching your woman with someone else and he did that once watched link fuck one of his exs but he didn't like it as much as he thought he would and he isn't trying to get me to or anything like that

And I have plans like big plans with me will link and baby all going out together and its a really really big deal but I can't tell u much now with out telling u when and where I'll be so u have to wait till after to know more about this but trust me its a big deal I may even get to dress baby girl up I really can't wait

But uh sex with will... yeah I know I shouldn't have I wasn't having sex with anyone and I think I was doing good it had been like forever or it felt like it anyway

So will and I started talking more and hanging out more watching Dr who and other nerd stuff whatever oh and he got be some Dr who movie for Valentine's Day but we fucked before that I mean I seen him on v day and yeah I got laid but that wasn't the first time... the first stared out just kissing whatever I really like kissing him I took control still thinking of him as more submissive now I know he really isn't but I had him kissing up my leg along my tat on his knees in front of me I let him kiss all the way up the inside of leg just next to my pussy but I never let his lips touch my pussy I was teasing him I still thought he was more of a cuckold I asked him what he wanted and I thought it would be a taste of me but it wasn't he wanted his cock sucked.... I love to suck cock

So I did and since it was my first time sucking his cock and he had stopped me from sucking his cock last time I tried I made sure it was good like even by my standards I wanted to make sure he would never stop me from sucking his dick again lol

So yeah I gave him one hell of a blow job till he asked me to fuck him... I had him at my mercy I gave him a big kiss looked him in the eyes and gave him my sweetest smile then said no I went back to sucking his dick but then I'd stop and slide my pussy up and down his cock with out letting him slip inside me then id suck his dick again get it nice and wet before slideing my pussy down the lenght of it again I spent over half an hour sucking his dick thenover an hour of rubbing my pussy over him he was on his back and I was riding him kind I didn't let him inside me but I'd rub myself over the length of his cock and letting the head of his cock rest just about to push in before shifting my hips and draging my pussy down the length of his cock again never letting him in and I made him beg.... a lot

And I really wasn't planing on fucking him I wanted to get him off with out flicking him but it was getting to me teasing him I wanted it and I gave in I had one hand tangled in his hair pulling his head back the other under his chin holding his face in place I kissed him again and told him to beg and he did and I sank down on his cock all the way down fast but not hard I spent just a few seconds grinding my hips against him enjoys the feel of a cock deep inside me after being without for so long then I started tobob up and down on his cock fast hard and deep I came almost instantly he did as I did and so did he but we had spent almost 2 hours teaseing each other I think he felt bad the he got off so soon well I don't think I know he said so but with as long as I spent teasing him I'd have been insulted if he had lasted long and we did go again and have had other night together so its not an issue he does fine its just idk we don't talk as much as we did before the link drama and that's what I want more than sex

And I met someone else... let's call him Joe

G I Joe lol

Joe is a soldier he well he is just amazing like really everything I want just like wow I started talking to him when will and I wasn't talking Joe he texts me good morning ever day and goodnight every night we talk all the time and spend hours on the phone we had dinner one night and he brought me flowers like a bouquet of roses and and pot of live hyacinth I told him once like a week before hand they were my favorite but they r out of season idk where he got them but they only come live and I wouldn't have it any other way but just like a great guy all the way around

Wouldn't u know it there is a catch.... he doesn't want to get to close he really likes me but its complicated he has a gf kinda but not anymore not really she left him they had been together for a few years even lived together but she left went out of state to stay with family and he didn't know if she was going to come back yet or not he was waiting for her to decide

Wtf he is waiting for the girl that left him

Remember that thing I said before about second place.... yeah c I said we would get back to that

So I really like this guy and I can understand that after several years it would be worth the chance and I wouldn't ever want him to like leave someone else for me I don't want to like take him away but she left and he is waiting and I know its flicked up but just the fact the he would tell me I mean fucking me that he is really in to me and its so much more than just sexual but he is waiting fucking waiting what guy ever waits on any girl anymore really kind just makes me want him more

But I've got will..... I just don't know if I really want him I did before the link drama and I miss the way we used to talk

Idk my love life is still just as fucked up as ever