Forced to hae a prostate exam

As with all of the tasks I have written about I was talked into humiliating myself at my own doctor last year by an online friend.

When I went to the doctor it was terrible. I had been fretting over the doc telling me to take my pants down for over a year. I dreaded this moment. I shaved smooth the morning of the exam. The shirt I wore diddnt even go down far enough to cover me. So while I stood there bare ass with my little penis on display he put his gloves on. He examined me and asked if I have noticed some atrophy of my testicles. I told him maybe a little, but that they have always been small When he was finished I asked him if there was anything to do about my size, anything to make it bigger. He asked if I have ever tried a penis pump. I told him no, and was wondering about pills I could take. He told me that they probably wouldn't work. This made me blush badly. He seemed embarrassed for me. When he told me to pull my pants up I froze, I almost did it without saying anything, but I managed to meekly ask if I needed a prostate exam

He asked if I "wanted" a prostate exam.... I said no.... but that I was worried about my anal health.. I told him I thought maybe I had some tearing from a toy. Getting a prostate exam and having to admit I was worried about my anus was beyond humiliating! He seemed pissed as he told me he would give me one. I was told to turn around and bend over the table. I felt like I was about to be violated.... and I was right... it was so humiliating and terrible.... he lubed up his finger and pushed into my butt I could feel my little penis start to get hard..... I wanted to cry He moved it around a few times and all I could think about was how I was getting finger fucked like a girl. By the time he pulled his finger out I was shaking and my little hard on was sticking straight out I was so ashamed of myself.... he told me everything was fine gave me tissue to wipe the lube off .....and that I could pull my pants up. He never said anything to me but when he pulled his finger out I could feel the lube dripping between my cheeks. I turned to him to grab the tissue before pulling my pants up.... my hard little baby dick and shriveled balls humiliating me one last time as I wiped my butt. I had to wipe my legs.. and between my cheeks a lot.. I was a mess. He told me to be careful and to get tested regularly if I engage in anal sex wih a man and I had no more questions so I quickly left. The feeling of being finger fucked, and the lube still in my butt was with me for hours.... it make me Ill to my stomach the rest of the day I blush bright red any time I think about it, and having to tell you all again has brought me right back to that day.