What i would like out of my submission

I am writing this out as this is what i firmly want out of submission from my owner

I enjoy being cuckolded, looking at pictures seeing how you wish to be treated, guessing what your doing, telling me your talking to real men or your Mistress and then quickly leave me, always wondering and trying to figure out whats happening, being denied of something, being frustrated, constantly kept in chastity, facesitting and licking your ass while you surf the net for dominants and subs, talking to real men or your Mistress and doing some shopping for bdsm items, humiliation, findom, making me go to work in chastity as a normal male then coming home after work to become my owner biggest sissy slut for her, i love it when she doesn't reply or she takes awhile putting me into frustration it makes me hard in chastity quite often, knowing that im not worth her attention. I would love the sight if she gets on her knee to inspect my chastity and will run her fingertips over the top of my caged clit making me burn with anger yet also seeing her giggle is such a turn on and building on top of the frustration even more. I just want to see her get dominated in different ways see her squirm, helpless and in a state of enjoyment. Watching or imagine her being put into tight bondages, being fucked by a machine, serving a real man or having some lesbian sex, wearing all kinds of latex, getting smacked or whipped and being simply dominated by another man or female is very arousing for me to watch and imagine, im not acting dominant here rather i enjoy watching and imagining my Owner get treated in this such manner

My needs are that i would like it to be more strict and time based task, listen to you having sex with a real man or having lezzy fun time while im doing chores, forced to do something for your entertainment or pleasure, be trained to walk in ballet heels. I would love to become her sissy rubberdoll and seeing her play with me as a proper looking slut. Im also curious to try wearing a spiked chastity it something that has been on my mind and suffering in pain as you run your fingertip over it. Im in need of wearing her collar as a sign of ownership and im looking forward to this to this day to come. Also giving up my chastity keys to her is also another need for me telling me that my clit is pretty useless and she will control me from that day forward. Something i need is a chastised blowjob, sucking my locking up cock would be absolutely frustrating. I would enjoy giving my Miss pleasure, worship her high heels and feet, lich her holes if permitted. Giving up myself for my Miss benefits and sexual pleasure. My pleasure dont mean anything and i would be denied of any pleasure, my focus will be her entirely this isn't about me its about her

What I expect out of submission is that i will do as im told by my Miss, she will tell me my do and cant do. Submission isnt just about the sex its also about showing my commitment to the owner, showing my love and loyalty. Ill also take care of her needs if she needs me for anything whether that is her being sick, an event or simply her hygiene needs like after showers. My life means nothing and I'll dedicate my life to hers making her have a more freedom of choice and money. Ill work to give her the most quality of life she could possibly have by doing her work, bills, domestic house chores, serve breakfast lunch and dinner, serve her meals or drinks whenever requested. Ill remain in chastity as a cuck under her command and she will do what suits her and my release will be ultimately up to her to decide. As of now i hold my keys with me i dare not to remove my chastity as it means a test for me to see if I'm worthy of being her property.
Aftercare is a very important factor of BDSM. I would like to spend some time to reconnect to reality and re-establish roles outside the scene with her. Some scenes maybe very intense, emotionally and psychologically and she may need to help me unwind and recover. She will also need aftercare like a massage or sex, but at the least we should both get re-hydrated and rest. What i see is aftercare is a forgotten part of the negotiation process and there are many BDSM practitioners that do not perform aftercare after a scene. Ive also seen it less common for aftercare to happen when playing in a casual. The way i see it is the Dominant and submissive are there for selfish reasons and not for a dance of power between a well connected relationship.
Often, the first thing we will need is a drink of water, followed by a trip to the toilet. Lots of tender affection, cuddling and kissing will often comfort our inner selves and improve the mental state.
Self-care. From what I've learnt submissives tend to see self care as being selfish, but if you’re not taking care of yourself, then how can you take care of your dominant and other responsibilities? Self care doesn’t have to be anything extravagant or expensive. A special treat, a bubble bath, taking time doing something you love doing. Being able to relax and recharge your batteries can make the world of difference.
Communication is important also, There are times where I don’t feel like being a slave. I look around the house and see what needs to be done, dishes, laundry, dinner prep, grocery shopping and I think to myself I really don’t wanna do any of it. When this happens, this is called a burnout. A burnout is defined as “the condition of submissive who has become very physically and emotionally tired after doing a difficult job for a long time." Burnouts can happen in a varying degrees, sometimes lasting maybe an hour or two or even weeks and months. There are a lot of things that can cause burnout. Stress, health issues, personal and family problems, problems at work, relationship issues, all of these things can contribute to burnout. First things first, i would talk to my dominant. I would let them know what’s going on with me. Yes, she may notice that not everything is okay with me, but she's not a mindreader and can’t figure out on her own that im dealing with a burnout. I need to let her know that im feeling overwhelmed and together the pair of us can work something out to help reduce the stress at home.