Straight, but obsessed with big cocks...
I have always considered myself straight, but I have had a lifelong fascination/obsession with big cocks. As a guy with a small penis I was very sexually timid as a young man. I also had a string of unfaithful girlfriends which fed my thoughts of sexual inadequacy. At first I hated it, but I eventually grew to embrace it. Now I find it impossible to have an orgasm without seeing a guy with a big cock fucking a woman hard, or imagining one of my exes with her well hung lover.
6 年 前
He would do it right in front of me when I slept over at his house. Stroke his big hard cock until he shot his load. I never heard or saw such a thing! I played with mine, but never came. He also showed me about blow jobs. We blew each other a few times, but he never shot in my mouth....I swear! I never forgot that feeling about having a hard thick cock in my mouth. It does feel good, but never did it again.
That ended after a few times, but when I went home, fuck I started to jerk off every night....if that was what you called it, cause I couldn't cum. It was right there sorta, but I guess I was too young. I kept at it and then one day I did it. I shot my cum. Fuck it felt so good. I still remember it!
There are girls out there who don't really *want* someone with a large penis, they aren't into the discomfort. I'm confident you could find someone out there who likes you for the qualities *you* have, if you looked hard enough. And if you're a bad ass at eating pussy that will score you points with almost *any* girl, right? haha
Anyway I hope you find your joy somehow, dude-- I hate seeing people feel inadequate in some capacity because I often do myself and it's miserable. I wish you a better outlook than that. Cheers man.