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I'm good.

Yes, and then you said you have something else to ask me about.

I'm just kind of bummed out, like, I don't think I'm nervous anymore, just because of my college stuff that I'm in.

I'm kind of upset with myself, because I have a lot of jolt right now, and a lot of...

back and forth thoughts, like I just feel really guilty of the fact that I'm hiding something really big and probably detrimental to my parents and a lot of people are personally affiliated with my life.