She's Hard to Read

It's been over a week since I've written, but I don't really have that much to report...which is getting frustrating. She travels a lot more for her work than I thought, and when she is in town it seems like she doesn't have much time for me.

I did everything she told me to do. She was back in town on Monday, and I took her out to dinner and gave her the $250 gift certificate she told me to buy for her. She didn't thank me for it, which didn't bother me except I guess I had expectations that she might want to spend more time with me. After dinner, she had me drive her straight home and didn't invite me in. There was a light on in the house, and a pickup truck in the driveway. It was easy to connect the dots.

I don't get jealous over sex. In fact, I like the idea of a Mistress who has lovers while I am denied. It's not about sex, it's about her not carving out a little bit of time for me. Right now I feel way, way, down on her priority list.

At every juncture, I have done my best to be a gentleman as well as a submissive. I have followed her instructions to the letter.
As I drove home I wondered if I was being tested, or I was being played for a sucker. I really need some kind of feedback from her. Like everything else, she controls the flow of information. She said she was going to write me an email on Tuesday, and now it's Thursday and I still haven't heard from her. I wrote her a short email letting her know I missed her. I have no idea where she is or when she'll be back in town.

So anyway, I'm in limbo. It might be time to start looking elsewhere again. (big sigh)