Crossdressing needs

I don't know why I need to crossdress...I'm a normal strait male who is only attracted to women. Maybe I love women so much I want to look like them. I have a normal relationship with a woman who I truly love. Yes, she knows I dress... But when I crossdress all I want to do is have a trans lesbian experience. I wouldent touch another mans dick but if we both are dessed like women I would love to suck her clitty. The only way I will ever have sex with a guy is if he is completely dressed as a woman and I'm also completely dressesed as a women. I would like to start by sucking her cock, lick her balls, swallow her cum, and take every inch of her in my ass. Also would love to fuck her ass. Nothing is is hotter that a cock in panties and stockings looking all girly. Any cd girls that can relate?