Humiliation
I have a few thoughts on humiliation. I speak for myself and not others, so don't take it as the gospel. Most of the time I don't feel humiliation one-on-one with a Domme. There is some level of intimacy and trust, and once that's established then I feel no shame. I perform the acts behind closed doors, so it's sort of like our little secret.
However, put someone else in the room that I don't know and my demeanor changes. A natural sense of embarrassment overcomes me and I feel genuine humiliation. It doesn't matter to me whether the third person is male or female. They see me vulnerable in compromising positions performing taboo acts. I've been to a couple of play parties and I never get comfortable with my nudity. I feel deep embarrassment with many eyes on my body.
The same thing goes for pictures or videos. I had a session with a pro Domme once who was quite the shutterbug and took dozens of pictures. The next morning I found them posted all over her sites on the internet. Her pages are quite popular in the Dallas area, and there were lots of humiliating comments left by people I had never met. I called her and begged her to take them down, but she wouldn't. I was worried that someone would recognize me, so I wound up paying her money to remove the pics. During the week or so the pictures were up I felt a strange cocktail of emotions. I obviously felt humiliated and fearful of being exposed, but I also had a feeling of "coming out" so to speak. Why shouldn't the world see me as I really am?
Then there is my cock. A few well intentioned women have told me it's "average", but when a Domme wants to make me feel extreme psychological pain, she'll make repeated comments about me being inadequate and inferior. The effect of the words causes my dick to shrink basically rendering me impotent. Then the humiliation is compounded by not being able to get it up.
Cuckolding is also a humbling experience. I performed in the role of cuckold with a married couple a few times and hubby had a cock like a telephone pole and wifey had a huge clit. Their play name for me was "Tiny". I still have dreams (nightmares?) about them.
If humiliation is your thing, then it takes a special kind of partner who can get into your head. In my case, if a Domme realizes how self-conscious I am about my dick, she can really work me over psychologically. Most men are proud of their package, while I'm embarrassed about mine.
A Domme once asked me how many women I had fucked in my life, and I told her 8. She told me that I was an epic disappointment to all 8 of them, and my cock should be taken out of circulation. Fucking is something best left to "real men". Those words have had a profound effect on me, and I haven't had intercourse since.
However, I've also been told am I good cock sucker, pussy eater, and ass licker. Both men and women have complimented me on my ass being very "fuckable". The positive reinforcement has me seeking these things out at this stage of my life. I don't see humiliation affecting my self-esteem....really. To me being submissive is having the confidence to put someone else's pleasure ahead of your own.
However, put someone else in the room that I don't know and my demeanor changes. A natural sense of embarrassment overcomes me and I feel genuine humiliation. It doesn't matter to me whether the third person is male or female. They see me vulnerable in compromising positions performing taboo acts. I've been to a couple of play parties and I never get comfortable with my nudity. I feel deep embarrassment with many eyes on my body.
The same thing goes for pictures or videos. I had a session with a pro Domme once who was quite the shutterbug and took dozens of pictures. The next morning I found them posted all over her sites on the internet. Her pages are quite popular in the Dallas area, and there were lots of humiliating comments left by people I had never met. I called her and begged her to take them down, but she wouldn't. I was worried that someone would recognize me, so I wound up paying her money to remove the pics. During the week or so the pictures were up I felt a strange cocktail of emotions. I obviously felt humiliated and fearful of being exposed, but I also had a feeling of "coming out" so to speak. Why shouldn't the world see me as I really am?
Then there is my cock. A few well intentioned women have told me it's "average", but when a Domme wants to make me feel extreme psychological pain, she'll make repeated comments about me being inadequate and inferior. The effect of the words causes my dick to shrink basically rendering me impotent. Then the humiliation is compounded by not being able to get it up.
Cuckolding is also a humbling experience. I performed in the role of cuckold with a married couple a few times and hubby had a cock like a telephone pole and wifey had a huge clit. Their play name for me was "Tiny". I still have dreams (nightmares?) about them.
If humiliation is your thing, then it takes a special kind of partner who can get into your head. In my case, if a Domme realizes how self-conscious I am about my dick, she can really work me over psychologically. Most men are proud of their package, while I'm embarrassed about mine.
A Domme once asked me how many women I had fucked in my life, and I told her 8. She told me that I was an epic disappointment to all 8 of them, and my cock should be taken out of circulation. Fucking is something best left to "real men". Those words have had a profound effect on me, and I haven't had intercourse since.
However, I've also been told am I good cock sucker, pussy eater, and ass licker. Both men and women have complimented me on my ass being very "fuckable". The positive reinforcement has me seeking these things out at this stage of my life. I don't see humiliation affecting my self-esteem....really. To me being submissive is having the confidence to put someone else's pleasure ahead of your own.
7 年 前
