Sexual validation can only do so much
This is no ones fault, really. My fault only. Or it's more of an insight.
At first, getting sexual validation is fun, empowering. And even if I do look like a train wreck, some ppl doesn not seem to think that about me. The find me...sexy. Anyway. Being a woman on here means lots and lots of attention from men. LOTS. Insane amounts.
But as always...after a while you start to feel like nothing but a piece of meat. And that's no ones fault, it's a porn website! It's pretty much one dimensional. Sex, lust, eroticism. What else can you expect, right?
But when I start to feel grumpy, grouchy, tired of constantly being someones fantasy and not a real ass human, it's time to take a break from it. When I start to get pissed when someone sends an unwanted dick pick and have expectations that I'm always up for it. That's when I need to take a break. Without being a bitch about it, even if I do feel bitchy af. Some (not all, some) seems to think that I always walks around dressed in a sexy outfit, constantly horny and all dolled up.
The truth is I'm mostly dressed in something that can take somewhat of a beating. Living like I do, with the tiny business we have, means I often got either paint or soot on my hands from making fires and handling wood (no pun intended), chapped nailbands, forget about nailpolish lol, it would only last an hour. Right now I got thick cameo pants that's fuzzy and cozy inside, and a hoodie. Going out to change some fluids in the car, and hopefully fix a broken break light. Then I'm trying to smack down a feeding table further into the ground, for the deers that we feed. The little ones can't reach up. After that imma hit the gym and then come home to finish cleaning out the big wardrobe. So. I can't have my maiden outfit on. Maybe for the last. But I tend to get sweaty when I lift heavy stuff, so no. I'm not a dolled up princess, I'm more of a woods woman lol. That DO love to dress up and look and smell nice, but it's not realistic to expect that from me 24/7.
So I'm taking a small break, I do no look for anything rn, more then an occasional chitchat. I need to fix some things at home first. :) Those that I have a good contact with, don't worry. This is not aimed towards you.
At first, getting sexual validation is fun, empowering. And even if I do look like a train wreck, some ppl doesn not seem to think that about me. The find me...sexy. Anyway. Being a woman on here means lots and lots of attention from men. LOTS. Insane amounts.
But as always...after a while you start to feel like nothing but a piece of meat. And that's no ones fault, it's a porn website! It's pretty much one dimensional. Sex, lust, eroticism. What else can you expect, right?
But when I start to feel grumpy, grouchy, tired of constantly being someones fantasy and not a real ass human, it's time to take a break from it. When I start to get pissed when someone sends an unwanted dick pick and have expectations that I'm always up for it. That's when I need to take a break. Without being a bitch about it, even if I do feel bitchy af. Some (not all, some) seems to think that I always walks around dressed in a sexy outfit, constantly horny and all dolled up.
The truth is I'm mostly dressed in something that can take somewhat of a beating. Living like I do, with the tiny business we have, means I often got either paint or soot on my hands from making fires and handling wood (no pun intended), chapped nailbands, forget about nailpolish lol, it would only last an hour. Right now I got thick cameo pants that's fuzzy and cozy inside, and a hoodie. Going out to change some fluids in the car, and hopefully fix a broken break light. Then I'm trying to smack down a feeding table further into the ground, for the deers that we feed. The little ones can't reach up. After that imma hit the gym and then come home to finish cleaning out the big wardrobe. So. I can't have my maiden outfit on. Maybe for the last. But I tend to get sweaty when I lift heavy stuff, so no. I'm not a dolled up princess, I'm more of a woods woman lol. That DO love to dress up and look and smell nice, but it's not realistic to expect that from me 24/7.
So I'm taking a small break, I do no look for anything rn, more then an occasional chitchat. I need to fix some things at home first. :) Those that I have a good contact with, don't worry. This is not aimed towards you.
5 年 前
