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I'm kind of embarrassed to even write this, but I left a cliffhanger on my last post. 2020 has been about as bad as it gets. I was set to have a session with a lovely dominatrix, Princess Jennifer, last weekend. As a precaution we met at a pharmacy that offered 15 minute COVID screening. My insurance covered mine, but I had to pay for hers. Long story short, I came out negative and Jennifer tested positive. That was an immediate ender for both of us, and as I drove home I realized it is still a dangerous world out there. I guess I should be happy that I wasn't put at risk, but I'm also a bit… 阅读更多内容

So I haven't played in a long time. The last time I booked a pro Domme was back in February before COVID19 raised its ugly head. The professional ladies I know have moved their business from real time to on-line cyber domination. That does absolutely nothing for me. If I'm going to shell out a bunch of money for an hour of a woman's time, then it has to be real. She has to be the one physically abusing me, not an image on a computer screen telling me to abuse myself. I guess the good news is that over the last eight months or so, my savings account has reflected the fact I'm not spending mo… 阅读更多内容

I had been planning on going to a kink party last night in Dallas and it seems that the Coronavirus spooked the venue owners. I got an email last night stating that it would be rescheduled when this thing blows over. So I figured I'd get a bottle of wine and watch television last night. It's the responsible thing to keep away from crowds, right? I went to the grocery store and the parking lot was full. When I was finally able to park, I waited in line for thirty minutes with my one bottle of wine surrounded by hundreds of panic shoppers with carts overflowing. I'm telling you, this shit is c… 阅读更多内容

In general I think of a cuckoldress as being dominant and a hotwife being submissive, but that's not always true. I've seen these labels tossed around and have wondered about the differentiation. I bumped into the following definitions: Hotwife: A married woman who pursues sexual relationships with men other than her husband, her husband has full knowledge of her activities and consents to them and gets pleasure from them. Cuckoldress: A woman who pursues sexual relationships with other people than her partner, she is sexually dominant to her partner and her outside play is to reinforce her… 阅读更多内容

I went to a gentlemen's club last night for the first time in ages. I'm writing this post Sunday morning to try to remember the details. It was educational and turned out better than I could have imagined. As some of you already know, I generally spend my adult entertainment dollars on femdom activities such as sessions with pro Dommes, but I have a friend whose girlfriend is one of the dancers at the club I visited last night. He likes to watch her strip in front of strangers, and she likes that he likes to watch her strip in front of strangers. It seems like a good arrangement, but he hates… 阅读更多内容

I was perving the profiles earlier this week when I came upon a profile with a female face that looked very familiar. I've been on this site several years and probably viewed a couple thousand profiles. I never expected that I'd come across someone actually know, but I'm about 99.9% sure that it's her. She's a woman that in my wildest dreams I'd never expect to find on Xhamster. I think I should add that she attempted to walk a fine line in her profile trying to maintain her anonymity while advertising her carnal desires to like-minded individuals. Her videos are dimly lit, her pictures often… 阅读更多内容

It took longer than I thought to get the arrangements made, but my double Domme session finally happened last Sunday. It was everything I had hoped for and more. Both ladies were skilled and sadistic, and I experienced a long afternoon of sensations and emotions that ran the spectrum. I think what made it so special is that they were very different in their approaches to domination, yet they both worked so well together. Mistress Natasha is an older woman with more than 20 years of BDSM experience. She is a master of the psychological aspects of D/s, and Her goal is to snake Her way into your… 阅读更多内容

My double Domme session is booked. It took considerably more planning and calling around than I thought, and I really didn't get much help along the way. For the better part of the week I've been trying to find two willing professional Dommes, coordinate schedules, find a place with equipment, negotiate prices, make reservations, etc... Most of the women I know work independently, and while paths may cross, a lot of them don't come in regular contact with other pro Dommes. In fact, several of the ladies I spoke with were hesitant to bring a third party into a scene that they didn't personall… 阅读更多内容

Lately I have been having this fantasy about being double-teamed by two Dommes. It's actually more than just a fantasy, it's something I have done several times in my life. Usually, I've had to pay for it, but there was one occasion when the moons lined up and I found myself in the company of two kinky, empowered women. It's a memory that I'll never forget, and perhaps it's that memory that has triggering my lust for the experience again. Problem is that it's going to be more than double the price to get it done professionally. Generally I budget for one pro Dominatrix session a month, but re… 阅读更多内容

I rarely block or delete, but when I do it's because some asshole who doesn't know me makes rude, negative, or judgemental comments. Today I blocked someone. Here's what the comment said, "your (sic) really sick, you know that? fucken creep like you belongs in jail. get some help before you die of AIDS!" Look, I can take criticism, or someone who disagrees with my lifestyle. But what purpose does a comment like the one above serve? Trolling perhaps. I am a lot of things: masochistic, deeply submissive, and at times confused about my own sexuality. I adore dominant women, and sometimes pay m… 阅读更多内容

I haven't posted in a long time. Part of the reason is that I had a pretty rough year. My Dad got sick and he wound up living with me for a long time. If you've ever been a caretaker of a loved one, then you know it's an all consuming job. After about five months I got him well enough to move into an elderly community and live somewhat independently. I still do his laundry, shopping, cleaning, etc.. but he can feed himself and walk fairly well for a man his age. My caregiver responsibilities have been reduced enough that I have gotten most of my life back. I decided to immerse myself in the… 阅读更多内容

It's been a long time since my last post. Normalcy has returned to my life...sort of. I still get the submissive ache from time to time and act on my fantasies with an occasional visit to a dominatrix. There are many pro Dommes in the Dallas-Fort Worth area, but there are few who have made the investments necessary for a mind-blowing experience. It's an expensive proposition to trick up a dungeon with all the best bondage gear, S/M furniture, and disciplinary implements. Then you add the wardrobe and fetish accessories, and you're looking at tens of thousands of dollars. There are a lo… 阅读更多内容

So the fiasco with my arrangement with the professional dominatrix has come to an end. You live, you learn. She's moving to London next month to be in proximity to several of her upscale clients. I guess I can't blame her. A girl's gotta earn a living. I guess the good news is that I never really got that close to her. I'll have memories of some incredibly kinky sessions, but it felt like a business arrangement all along. It will also be nice to have a little extra income as I no longer will be making her car payment. Also, I find myself suddenly with a lot of free time again. But… 阅读更多内容

The pro Domme I've been working for has been out of town this week. It's a busy time of year for her, and she has to balance her schedule with her family. She spent Christmas with her sister's family in New York, and today she's flying to London. It amazes me how many ultra rich clients she has who pick up her airfare and traveling expenses in addition to paying for session time with her. She travels about a third of the month, so I have found myself spending quite a bit of time at DFW Airport recently. While there is fantasy and fetish fulfillment associated with her vocation, there are… 阅读更多内容

My Domme has been out of town this week. She received a call Monday morning and flew to New York to meet a client. Sometimes it blows me away how much money is out there to be made in the world of professional domination. Besides paying for her airfare, ground transportation, and food; she received $2000 a day to dominate a wealthy CEO. She came back with a stack of money Friday night, and I got a text to pick her up at the airport. She's into the whole "sub as a chauffeur" thing. She sees it as another perk to the lifestyle. I met her at the airport and loaded her bags in my car. While her… 阅读更多内容

My situation with the pro Domme is evolving, and has changed considerably since I first entered into an agreement with her. The original agreement was that I would make her car payment and perform domestic, computer and clerical tasks for her in exchange for femdom sessions with her. She told me not to expect sex or romance from our arrangement and to accept our agreement on its face value. I was fine with that. The Wednesday before Thanksgiving she invited me and her other submissive to dinner at her place. Her other sub is a younger female in her late 20's who has been with her for a little… 阅读更多内容

I have entered an agreement with a local Dominatrix that entails me making her car payment and performing various computer and labor tasks for her. In exchange I receive free BDSM sessions with her. It's only been about a week, but so far...so good. I worked about 12 hours for her last week. There's not much interesting there to report unless you're someone into domestic service. It's pretty much like reporting to a job. She gives me a list of things that need to be accomplished, and I do them for her. I do the work fully clothed, and mostly stay out of her way. She seems to trust me… 阅读更多内容

I've entered an arrangement with a professional Dominatrix this last week, and it's been quite a learning experience for me. Basically, I perform various tasks for her business and around her house in exchange for Femdom sessions with her. This past week I've been to her place three times for an average of around 4 hours a day. It's basically a part-time job, and today I "get paid", so to speak. She's been pleased with the work that I've done for her, and told me that I had a reward coming. Part of the deal has been wearing a chastity device, and I'll be honest that it's the worst part… 阅读更多内容

I saw a professional last night. She is a Domme that I have had sessions with before. She is one of the few pros in the area who will do strapon play which is one of my favorite activities. Her scenes always end with a long, slow, painful caning. Her clients always wear a trophy for a few days after a session with her, and I am no exception. I am sore in a good way this morning ....but that's not what this post is about. At the end of our session she asked me why it had been so long since I'd seen her. I told her that I have a limited budget and can only see a professional Dominatrix… 阅读更多内容

I have a few thoughts on humiliation. I speak for myself and not others, so don't take it as the gospel. Most of the time I don't feel humiliation one-on-one with a Domme. There is some level of intimacy and trust, and once that's established then I feel no shame. I perform the acts behind closed doors, so it's sort of like our little secret. However, put someone else in the room that I don't know and my demeanor changes. A natural sense of embarrassment overcomes me and I feel genuine humiliation. It doesn't matter to me whether the third person is male or female. They see me vulnera… 阅读更多内容